Yesterday as I was driving home from work, I was wondering "Why am I nannying? I have a Bachelor of Arts. I was offered a position at a Christian organization that would have started a 401K for me. Why in the world did the doors open for NANNYING of all things?!" Of course, I wasn't about to voice these frustrations with anyone...how can I complain about my job when other people can't find work at all? Plus; I still get to be with kids! That's my passion....I just can't complain about that.
So as I let my frustrations fester in my head last night, I prayed about where this path was leading me. Why am I doing something I know I don't want to keep doing in the future? I guess God decided this was one of those times He would answer me almost immediately.
I wish you could have seen my face during the conversation I had with Ron (the father of the kids I nanny) when he got back to the house today. We sat down talking about the school districts I would be interested in working with after I move to San Diego. "Oceanside, Carlsbad, Del Mar, San Diego...." and on and on I rambled. When I looked up from my shoes (which I had been staring at, hoping they would give me an idea of more of the districts I had researched) I saw Ron just waiting to get a word in edge wise. He said "Well...I have a meeting with the Superintendent of the Carlsbad School District tomorrow. Why don't you email me a resume and I'll print it to take it with me. At least then your name is in the pile, and you have a foot in the door." SAY WHAT?! I must have looked like a bus hit me. That's how I felt! Seriously...he just comes home and brings up this conversation that leads to "Well why don't you just let me take all your information and personally tell the most important person in the school district about you?" Umm alright. Sure. No argument here!
I am always in awe of God, but this was an even bigger shock than usual. Not even 24 hours after I was questioning Him. Why God? Why am I here doing this job? I'm overqualified for this...I am capable of so much more than just taking care of 2 kids for a couple hours a day! He sure sliced me up a nice slice of humble pie, huh? I can just imagine Him shaking His head at me: "Have a little faith! Don't you know I'm working everything out for your good? That's a passage you've read a million times. Why haven't you taken it to heart yet?!"
Sometimes what we need is a nice slap in the face. A bold sign that we're not in control at all. God has things planned for us that are grander than anything we could imagine for ourselves. All we need is a little trust that God is way more powerful than we could ever be.
Romans 8:28 - And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
